(In)disposition

~~#1 - BEDSIDE ON FEB. 26, 2019~~

I was tensed, and I was nervous.

As clichē as it seems, a night out wasn't exactly a good idea. Sure, it will be enticingly loud, filled with lights and wild, upbeat music, but what about the number of consequential possibilities?

Still, it was a chance to loosen up, and actually experience life. At least my birds were there before the event.

Hope, my orange-winged amazon, and Harpier, my sparrow were left that night. I felt guilty that I left without a goodbye. Hope tilted his head in confusion before I stepped out the door. I loathed the haunting guilt upon me.

Maybe they thought I would never leave them without a farewell. Maybe they were saddened by the fact that I was leaving.