Scared

I'm scared.
I'm scared of the lights
I'm scared of the cameras
I'm scared of my talents
I'm scared I might make it and forget what having a normal life was like
I'm scared ill never use my gift and never see what making it was like
its like I'm in a trap.
lately I've been losing it. losing my motivation to make anything..
once in a while i tell myself maybe this was just a hobby.
that it was just something I did. And I'm growing u-
NO I CANT ACCEPT THIS. IM WAY TOO GOOD AT WHAT I DO THIS CANT JUST BE A "HOBBY'
I HAVE SOMETHING NO ONE HAS IVE IMPACTED LIVES IVE MADE PEOPLE CRY WITH THIS IMA SHRUG THIS OFF I CAN DO THIS..
WAIT A SECOND I FEEL IT AGAIN
I THOUGHT I LOST IT, HAHA WHAT WAS I THINKING
IM BACK...IM..IM..I'm..I'm....scared.