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Ongoing5m
Last published Sun, Dec 16, 2018
DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NON-FICTION
You know, I think a lot. For (hopefully) most of us, it's a part of the process of being.
Specifically, I think of the harsher side of delicately delivered truths. And get EXPONENTIALLY more stressed about it (thus the emoji book cover).
Now, I'm just writing it down.
TW: death, abuse, and things of that nature are mentioned.
N.B: These chapters are NOT ALL my personal opinion, but merely observations my "shadow self" has made while pondering upon the complexities of the human experience.
My hope is that they will inspire you to think, as they inspire me.
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