There are lives we live because they seem more-or-less expected of us, those that offer paths of least resistance, those where so much of our identities are inherited but rarely questioned. And then, there are lives of obstacles and forks in the road, of discoveries and cherished alternatives.
Michael Saugus is a 40-something, well-compensated, management consultant. For Michael, it's a time of questioning career paths, of personal choices, of romantic attraction and of gender identification.
The journey is told by way of regular diary-journal writings, social media postings, the exchanges of texts and emails and sometimes, even by listings of Google searches. Bookishly, this is called an epistolary novel. I like to call it 'observations along the way.' I hope you enjoy the journey.
Janine O
Northern California
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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