TRIGGER WARNING: while this story represents, to the best of my ability, the reality of having an eating disorder, it may trigger people who are currently struggling. Make sure you are in a position where you can safely read and enjoy this work, and take breaks or stop reading when needed.
Shannon Hoffman was a sixteen-year-old girl with a bright future ahead of her; taking Advanced Placement classes for people two years her senior while scoring a leading role in the school's production of Grease and having all but her name signed on Yale's student acceptance list, she'd always been what her parents called a kid wonder, destined to become President or visit Mars or whatever idea she could possibly set her mind to.
Now, two years later, she's down over forty-five pounds and two GPA points, watching the numbers on the scale go down along with everything else she worked half her life for. But it's not the fault of the diets, she tells herself every night when the subject pops up, it's because she just can't get enough control...
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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