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Shade's Of Life

VictoriaSantizo

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Reads 6,038
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Parts 170
Time 2h 37m

VictoriaSantizo

Began 12/19/18 - End ?/?/?
Rank #2 Original Poem Feb 27, Wed 2019
Rank #2 Original Cover March 18, Mon 2019
Rank #22 NoJudging March 27, Wed 2019
Rank #15 NoJudging March 28, Thursday 2019
Rank #1NoJudging April 25, Thursday 2019
Rank #1 Original Cover April 25, Thursday 2019
Rank #1 OriginalPoem April 29, Monday 2019

Old Soul

An old person, once ask "Child, how can you proclaim to be a old soul"? How could I tell a complete stranger, my life story?
 
That I have learned, things that should never be known....

I experienced things, which have shaped the person I'm now....

My close Relationship with Death....

The pain I have endured, and the pain that has shattered me....

How love has been my damnation but also my savior....

The darkness in my heart, the wishes to taint my soul....

I reply "I maybe young, but I have lived a thousand life's, I have confronted thing's that have brought me to my knees, and have come out the other side stronger then I went in".

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