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Disasterology

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Never, never in my life have I ever been one of the crowd. I’ve always been unusual. It’s not that I’m not willing to change it’s that I’m not capable. That’s what scared me the most. I try to be different, by that meaning I tried being the same, but it was a fruitless endeavor.  I am stuck in my ways and had been sense birth. I have problems, I’m not going to deny it. I might be fucked up in the head but I know four things. I know my place in society, I know who I am, I’m a damn good friend and I never ever break a promise.
	Now that you know a little bit about me its time you know a little bit about me. My full name is Alexandria Dawn Joz-lin Kestrel. An intense name I’m aware, but I go by Alex. Simple, easy to remember and not quite as hard to live up to as Alexandria. I have three addictions and three vices. I’m addicted to music, photography and Tumblr. My vices are much much darker and much much more enthralling, so much so in fact that I feel I must keep them to myself. Like I’ve said before I have problems. But I didn’t pore my heart out onto paper so that you can hear about me and all of the things that make me a freak, I did it so you would know my story.Seluruh Hak Cipta Dilindungi Undang-Undang

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The Troubles of Angy

In the ominous depths of darkness, his words echoed like a sinister melody. "You don't even know why you're here. Escape is futile. Pain will be your constant companion," he whispered, a sadistic grin curling his lips, the taunting action causing shivers to run down her spine. "You will suffer in silence, drowning in your vain tears." He spat. " Death will elude you, leaving you to live through endless torment." He gripped her jaw tighter, drawing it closer to his face as he licked his lips. "You're merely a vessel, that will be constantly hollowed out from within. Never forget that," He released her as his final chilling warning hung in the air. "Any questions?" he dared, tauntingly tugging down her gag, his gaze piercing her soul. **** Once, there was a girl, lost in the labyrinth of her own torment. Angy Leon. Once, there was a boy, Alex Herrington, hiding secrets beneath his facade. What unfolds when their paths collide not once, but twice? First, a virtual encounter, a friendship seemingly lifted from the pages of a fairytale. Running from her assailants didn't seem as worse as a physical collision, with the one person she'd been torn away from by a devastating betrayal, thrusting Angy into her painful past with Alex at the center. He becomes her unexpected savior in the her desperate bid for freedom, causing her to take refuge in his sanctuary. But who is Alex truly? What secrets lie beneath his carefully constructed facade? And what mysteries shroud Angy, veiling her true identity from even herself? Could it be that the veins of their past ran deeper than they had envisaged? Delve into the enigma of their intertwined destinies, where every twist and turn reveals deeper layers of intrigue. Don't hesitate. Embark on this journey of discovery, where the shadows of the past converge with the uncertainty of the future. Unravel the tangled threads of their lives, for in their collision lies the key to unlocking the secrets that bind them together.