Disasterology
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Last published Wed, Sep 12, 2012
Never, never in my life have I ever been one of the crowd. I’ve always been unusual. It’s not that I’m not willing to change it’s that I’m not capable. That’s what scared me the most. I try to be different, by that meaning I tried being the same, but it was a fruitless endeavor. I am stuck in my ways and had been sense birth. I have problems, I’m not going to deny it. I might be fucked up in the head but I know four things. I know my place in society, I know who I am, I’m a damn good friend and I never ever break a promise.
Now that you know a little bit about me its time you know a little bit about me. My full name is Alexandria Dawn Joz-lin Kestrel. An intense name I’m aware, but I go by Alex. Simple, easy to remember and not quite as hard to live up to as Alexandria. I have three addictions and three vices. I’m addicted to music, photography and Tumblr. My vices are much much darker and much much more enthralling, so much so in fact that I feel I must keep them to myself. Like I’ve said before I have problems. But I didn’t pore my heart out onto paper so that you can hear about me and all of the things that make me a freak, I did it so you would know my story.
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