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Never, never in my life have I ever been one of the crowd. I’ve always been unusual. It’s not that I’m not willing to change it’s that I’m not capable. That’s what scared me the most. I try to be different, by that meaning I tried being the same, but it was a fruitless endeavor.  I am stuck in my ways and had been sense birth. I have problems, I’m not going to deny it. I might be fucked up in the head but I know four things. I know my place in society, I know who I am, I’m a damn good friend and I never ever break a promise.
	Now that you know a little bit about me its time you know a little bit about me. My full name is Alexandria Dawn Joz-lin Kestrel. An intense name I’m aware, but I go by Alex. Simple, easy to remember and not quite as hard to live up to as Alexandria. I have three addictions and three vices. I’m addicted to music, photography and Tumblr. My vices are much much darker and much much more enthralling, so much so in fact that I feel I must keep them to myself. Like I’ve said before I have problems. But I didn’t pore my heart out onto paper so that you can hear about me and all of the things that make me a freak, I did it so you would know my story.All Rights Reserved

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The Twisted Mind by marvelousmayam

"I felt as if I didn't belong, And I felt as if i'm not sick enough" Alfie struggles with the concept of food. He loves it, he hates it and just wants to find peace with it and within himself. He wants to make up with his body, his mind but he's lost all control so he's finding it hard to live. Alfie Hailo, a 16 year old swimmer, has been struggling with food since the age of 13. His parents put him in dance class when he was 6 but he was getting bullied as he got older, so decided to quit and choose a more 'masculine' sport.His father also left the family home 2 years prior and has been struggling to understand why. He has amazing friends, and an amazing family who love and care for him dearly but, he doesn't feel this. He feels like he has to be perfect. With the pressure of school, and having to keep up to the social norms of a professional swimmer, it's hard for Alfie to concentrate. He needs the help. And to do this, Alvin helps. Alvin helps him find his worth, take control, and makes his life easier, or so he seems. His best friends, Killian and Ruby, know Alfie inside and out. They know his family life, school life. And this is because Alfie is a simple person. He has never had a detention, nor has he been expelled. He's a straight A student with no history of alcohol or drug abuse. Will they suspect anything? How will Alfie proceed with his excruciating pain. Will he cover it up or will he find the courage to speak up and seek help?

Hey, I'm Your Dad (Pierce the Veil Fanfiction) by austinnsquidgy

15 year old Dani Rictshaw is an orphan. Her teen mom gave her up to live in the foster system. Dani has secrets that nobody but her know. They can either save her, or destroy her. She's lived through depression and self harm, and has been strong for so long, but she's facing her demons again. Her father comes back, but for the first time only. Mr. Vic Fuentes, the vocalist for Pierce the Veil, has just found out about his daughter, and is taking her home. What happens when Vic uncovers one of her secrets and how will Dani cope? Read to find out. A/N hey I wrote this over a span of like 4 years so the writing has changed significantly and whatnot please read with caution I don't condone 99% of what's in here okay bye ily

Starving For Help by Lauryn_Love

"I smile everyday. I live my life like nothing is wrong with me. No one would ever guess that I'm screaming inside or that I've secretly been hiding this huge part of my life. No one would ever know that I cry myself to sleep at night or that deep down I'm starving for help." Welcome to Anorexia. Your hostess is Ana. She'll take over from here. Suffering alone inside of your mind from a terrifying mental disorder, is something that even those who battle such a thing every day, cannot fully understand. It's like being alone 24/7 yet it's never quiet inside of your head. You can't stop the voices. You can't control your emotions. As it gets worse, you lose control of your body all together. You become prey to your disease and You can't fight back. That is what it's like for someone who has spent years of their life suffering in silence from an eating disorder. Fighting a monster that you have no chance of beating. It's almost impossible to describe the type of torture that consumes your mind. Hell. It's equivalent to pure hell.

Parasites (Kellic) by trashyalexx

(Kellic) (boyxboy) Kellin gets sexually assaulted by a friend he thought he was able to trust. The worst part? Vic comes home and hears them in the bedroom, thinking Kellin's just cheating on him, so, he leaves a note and takes off, leaving Kellin completely broken. Kellin and Vic both start bands, who become widely known across the world. Over the next 7 years, Kellin struggles to find the light again. He refuses to date anyone other than Vic, but he knows Vic would never love him again, so Kellin turns to his eating disorder to help him cope with the issues he has to deal with and take on in life. When Kellin and Vic meet for the second time, to create 'King for a Day' and go on tour together due to popular demand, will they stay awkward or will they be able to mend their broken relationship? {This story was inspired by a roleplay written by me and @KellicBro. Go check her out, she's fuckin' awesome.}

Burning Desires by XODanger

They were both so determined to have me. So relentless in their chase. I tried to tell the both of them I couldn't do it. I didn't date. I didn't have sex. I didn't do anything other than what was expected of me. But neither would listen and It was impossible to choose. Both were so completely different. Bleu was calamity. He was whom I craved when I needed quiet and serenity; when I needed to laugh and smile and let go of stress. Bleu was a warm sunset on the horizon of calm waters. An artist whom sought a muse. A free spirit who didn't realize his own potential to make the world a better place. Bleu gave me something I'd never known before. He gave me peace. He gave me a purity. Lucien was the complete opposite; he was tortured and traumatized and so familiar to me. When I needed the voices and the anxieties to disappear, when I needed to feel absolutely nothing but ecstasy, I knew I needed Lucien. He fed a part of me that had been awakened years ago. He fed my anger, my rage, and my fear until I had none left. He also needed someone who understood all that he was, and all that he needed. I had little knowledge of the dating world but they knew that already, and it didn't matter to them. So, I had to do what I had to do in order to protect myself; to keep myself in check and not let my emotions and feelings get too involved. I was only so strong and when two incredible, irresistible, successful men popped up and teased me, taunted me, and begged for me, what the hell was I to do but experience them both... have them both? To have them both and live the lie. Keeping my friends and family whom I'd once shared everything with- on the outside of my personal life. Two chance meetings. One massive lie. And two irresistible men. This would be the biggest challenge Elysia Lockwood had ever faced before.

{ #3 } Twisted Moon (MxM || 18+) by Snape75

Black Moon Series Book #3 Warning: #Mature #Gay #Triggering You shouldn't read this story before you have read at least I Would Give Him The Moon as you'll be missing part of the plot otherwise. My name is Camden and my friends categorize me as a sadist. A sadistic Dominant. I need to get this anger within out and I do so by inflicting mental and physical pain to my Submissives. And yet the moment I get the best kicks is through the aftercare I dispense. My soul is twisted. My past is twisted. * My name is Noah. I'm a homeless teenager who ran away from a homophobic family who never loved me because of what I supposedly did to my twin sister. I need pain to soothe my troubled mind. So I self-harm. My soul is twisted. My past is twisted. "A lifetime of consumption, They've all become the same, I punish them for pleasure, And pleasure some with pain. I punish you with pleasure, And pleasure you with pain" Thirty Seconds To Mars - End Of All Days "I wanna hide the truth I wanna shelter you But with the beast inside There's nowhere we can hide [...] When you feel my heat Look into my eyes It's where my demons hide It's where my demons hide Don't get too close It's dark inside It's where my demons hide It's where my demons hide" Imagine Dragons - Demons

The Troubles of Angy by Haanjy

Alex held fast, his eyes never leaving hers, his grip gentle yet unyielding. "Tell me, Angy," he whispered again, his voice low and persuasive. "What has you so tense that you're so bent on getting away from me?" Angy's heart raced, her mind racing with excuses and evasions. But Alex's eyes seemed to see right through her, to the secrets she kept hidden deep within. She felt like a bird caught in a snare, unable to escape the gentle yet unyielding pressure of his gaze. As the music swirled around them, Angy knew she was at a crossroads. She could continue to evade and hide, or she could take a chance and reveal the truth. "Hey..." He urged in a trail. "I don't belong here." She finally said, swallowing a lump in her throat. "What?" "I don't belong here, Alex." She repeated, more firmly this time. "This... being here with you, I don't belong here." "What's going on? What nonsense are you saying?" He paused. "Did you hear Charlotte?" He gauged her acutely, trying to work out the truth as he felt his heart standing on the steep precipice of fear of her answer. Angy resisted the urge to recoil. Charlotte had said something to Alex. How much did he know? **** What secrets lie beneath his carefully constructed facade? And what mysteries shroud Angy, veiling her true identity from even herself? Could it be that the veins of their past ran deeper than they had envisaged? Delve into the enigma of their intertwined destinies, where every twist and turn reveals deeper layers of intrigue. Don't hesitate. Embark on this journey of discovery, where the shadows of the past converge with the uncertainty of the future. Unravel the tangled threads of their lives, for in their collision lies the key to unlocking the secrets that bind them together.

Abigail by hmarieh1218

(In editing) She's depressed. She's anorexic. She's suicidal. She's insecure. Abigail has grown up with her three brothers and James, never meeting her parents, who abandoned her at birth. Her brothers were left to take care of her and keep a roof over their heads. Everyday they struggle to take care of Abigail, while working to keep them in their home. Life for them is hard. Life for Abigail is even harder. She has a dark mind and not by choice. Somewhere along the way she's developed these feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Everyday is a struggle for her and just getting out of bed is a success. She meets Zach, a bad boy with a bad reputation. He starts off as a tutor, just to help her out, out of pity. But eventually feelings get involved and Abigail finds herself liking a boy for the first time in her life. Things get serious and she somehow learns about his drug dealing business. Everything gets hectic and Abigail doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. Or if she even wants to live.

Ash by CheysArt23

Ash is a 17 year old girl. She's emo, anorexic, and doesn't like to be around a lot of people. She was arrested once for a mistake she made in the past, but she goes unnoticed most of the time. She gets adopted by a really cute guy, who's friend happens to live with him. She meets new people along the way and might even change her ways. She loves black and music such as: All Time Low, Falling In Reverse, Black Veil Brides, Green Day, The Cab, Sleeping With Sirens, The All-American Rejects, 5 Seconds of Summer, Simple Plan, A Rocket to the Moon, Skillet, Linkin Park, Fall Out Boy, Mayday Parade, Pierce The Veil, Bring Me The Horizon, Shinedown, Halestorm, Five Finger Death Punch, Paramore, Seether, Panic! At The Disco, Flyleaf, and Deviant. Those are just the ones I can think of at the moment. She starts falling for her "dad's" best friend, will Aaron let them date, or will he put a stop to it? Will Seth even like her, or is it all just a joke to him? She gets in an accident and things begin to change. Will she become a new person? Or will things stay the same?

In The Arms of The Alexin King by insdove

Ala (pronounced a-la) It is 2053, Earth is now home to the Alexins. The Alexins are a race of super humans who arrived on Earth in the year 2040 after their planet was no longer habitable. Alexins are stronger than us. They live longer, heal faster, and a select few can teleport without the use of technology. The King of the Alexins and the leaders of Earth agree to live in peace and allow citizens to intermarry. A rogue army arises killing, raping, stealing,and capturing innocent people. My family is attacked like many others, but I kill three rogues to protect my siblings. I fall in love with the Alexin King then I found out he has someone else. I am hurt, alone, and pregnant with his babies. A few years after the babies are born I fall for a guy named Jason despite God's warnings. Jason thinks me and my children are dead. I am not only physically, but emotionally scarred. King Brileon's boys come to me for protection after almost being killed. The King walks in to retrieve his boys and that is when I realize that old emotions and feelings are still alive for him. I thought my heart was over him, but it is not. King Brileon (Bri- pronounced like brian and leon- pronounced like le-awn) Forced into a loveless marriage I marry Trisha only for her to perish after the birth of our son. I find my soul mate, make love to her, than leave. I am terrified. I have never loved anyone before. The feelings I have for Ala intensify no matter how far I am from her as well as the bond. I meet Danica a gorgeous woman who I know is not from Earth. Where she is from I have no idea. There is no planets besides Earth, Alexin, and Liria that I know of. I ask Danica to marry me trying to deny the feelings I have for Ala still. Danica betrays me and tries to kidnap my sons. They flee and run to Ala for protection. I see her again and can no longer deny the feelings I have for her. Will she take me back or have I lost her forever?

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The Twisted Mind

"I felt as if I didn't belong, And I felt as if i'm not sick enough" Alfie struggles with the concept of food. He loves it, he hates it and just wants to find peace with it and within himself. He wants to make up with his body, his mind but he's lost all control so he's finding it hard to live. Alfie Hailo, a 16 year old swimmer, has been struggling with food since the age of 13. His parents put him in dance class when he was 6 but he was getting bullied as he got older, so decided to quit and choose a more 'masculine' sport.His father also left the family home 2 years prior and has been struggling to understand why. He has amazing friends, and an amazing family who love and care for him dearly but, he doesn't feel this. He feels like he has to be perfect. With the pressure of school, and having to keep up to the social norms of a professional swimmer, it's hard for Alfie to concentrate. He needs the help. And to do this, Alvin helps. Alvin helps him find his worth, take control, and makes his life easier, or so he seems. His best friends, Killian and Ruby, know Alfie inside and out. They know his family life, school life. And this is because Alfie is a simple person. He has never had a detention, nor has he been expelled. He's a straight A student with no history of alcohol or drug abuse. Will they suspect anything? How will Alfie proceed with his excruciating pain. Will he cover it up or will he find the courage to speak up and seek help?