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Disasterology

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Never, never in my life have I ever been one of the crowd. I’ve always been unusual. It’s not that I’m not willing to change it’s that I’m not capable. That’s what scared me the most. I try to be different, by that meaning I tried being the same, but it was a fruitless endeavor.  I am stuck in my ways and had been sense birth. I have problems, I’m not going to deny it. I might be fucked up in the head but I know four things. I know my place in society, I know who I am, I’m a damn good friend and I never ever break a promise.
	Now that you know a little bit about me its time you know a little bit about me. My full name is Alexandria Dawn Joz-lin Kestrel. An intense name I’m aware, but I go by Alex. Simple, easy to remember and not quite as hard to live up to as Alexandria. I have three addictions and three vices. I’m addicted to music, photography and Tumblr. My vices are much much darker and much much more enthralling, so much so in fact that I feel I must keep them to myself. Like I’ve said before I have problems. But I didn’t pore my heart out onto paper so that you can hear about me and all of the things that make me a freak, I did it so you would know my story.All Rights Reserved

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Constellations, Alex Gaskarth, All Time Low by sleepynonsleeper

What does she have that I don't? Alex tried to talk to me, but I ignored him and walked off. "Good luck man, when she's pissed, she doesn't stop being pissed for a few days." Gavin sympathizes with Alex. I don't want to tell anyone what happened, and I'm not going to. I wait for All Time Low to go on stage. I'm not gonna be a cunt and quit on him just because he did with me. I wait for a little while and then head out at my que, singing, bowing, and walking off and going to my bus. "If Alex comes by tell him I already went to bed. I don't want to talk to him." I mutter at the guys, going into the bathroom, taking off my makeup before climbing into bed in my sports bra and sweat pants. ●●●● Petal is a girl who loves music, and has always had a passion for it. She's in a band, touring with her favorite band around the world with her best friends. It's a little crazy, being a girl with bipolar depression around people who never seem to truly understand. Alex is a player just like Jack, only has been in a few serious relationships. He likes a challenge, and Petal is one hell of a challenge that he is scared to fall in love with. "You won't leave me, right?" I ask, tears in my eyes. "I won't ever, ever leave you. You help me line up things in my life, you and all the events in my life, have proven that it's all a big constellation." *In this, Lisa and Alex never got married. Lisa won't be mentioned, she doesn't exist, I think she's too wonderful for anyone to talk bad about.*

Nobody's Hero by musicismyhero13

"I'm nobody. That's all I am. That's all i ever will be. And everyone else agrees, it just never ends.... Sometimes all I want is for it to end- is that to much to ask?" Samantha, also known as Sam lives a hard life. She's known as the outcast, the rebel, the Emo of the town. She's nicer than people think, all she wants is to be accepted. Ever since high school she's been bullied, abused, tortured, simply for the way she looks. With dyed black and red hair, black eyeliner, and all black clothing, consisting of ripped skinny jeans, band merch, bracelets, combat boots, and any other 'Emo' clothing you could think of. Constantly being judged and abused by her family and everyone around her, Sam is slowly losing hope on things getting better, and even goes deeper than she ever has before. But will that change when she gets the chance of a lifetime when she meets some of her idols, the members of Black Veil Brides? Read to find out! *COMPLETED STORY* ~~~May be triggering for some (Does contain triggering topics)~~~ ***I don't own any of the songs or band members in this.... though I wish I was that close to them... I do own all fictional characters such as Sam, Jayden, her family, etc...*** Sorry I suck at descriptions Please check out my other story 'Warped' and 'Picture Perfect'

Besitos | book 1 | Jaime Preciado by convulsivecurrentz

//COMPLETED// THIS IS BOOK 1// Aria Perry always had a special bond with her brother, Tony. She always thought it was cool how he had such a liking for guitar. This year he joined a band called "Pierce the veil". This year was the year they would be writing their first debut album, A Flair For The Dramatic. When she goes to see her brothers first practice with the band, they perform their first song, Chemical Kids And Mechanical Brides. She instantly fell in love with the music, and maybe even the creators of it. The day she met the rest of the band, it was nothing but flirtatious conversations. She always knew that she had a likeable personality and what not, but when she met the band for the first time... All eyes were on her. A charming boy named Jaime seems to have taken an extra liking to her. (not accurately lined up with ages, etc just a story)

The Edge of Tomorrow by Aia_Je

Born into a prestigious family, Elijah had to shoulder a lot of things- pride, family name, being the best of the best... These things were not what he wanted. As his family pushed him to the top, he gained everything that everybody ever wanted, power, fame, and wealth. People were jealous, resentful, bitter of his achievements, they all wanted to be just like him. Beneath these cloaks was a man who longed for love, affection, happiness... But never has he gotten even a single drop of it. Trying to cast aside his past, he reincarnated after he died in a cold-blooded war. Still wanting love, affection, and happiness, he now seeks to get it all. In a world filled with magic, monsters, and swords he wants a chance to meet his desires in his second life. Now born as Alexander Hollows, he will create a path full of life... But never has he thought that so many challenges will face him from now on. With the help of the ones he trusts the most, they will discover what actually hides beneath the peace and prosperity of the new world, they will find the shadow that lurks beneath them. As the people around him discover and accept the truth of their own world will they also accept Alex's mysterious past? I'm only a beginner at writing and english is not my first language so please be considerate of my spelling and grammar errors. I have many ideas flowing in my head so please be patient while the plot slowly builds itself. I will give you more info on this novel later. Disclaimer: I do not own the cover! All credits to the creator of the cover! Any Pictures I put in the chapters do not belong to me!

Starving For Help by Lauryn_Love

"I smile everyday. I live my life like nothing is wrong with me. No one would ever guess that I'm screaming inside or that I've secretly been hiding this huge part of my life. No one would ever know that I cry myself to sleep at night or that deep down I'm starving for help." Welcome to Anorexia. Your hostess is Ana. She'll take over from here. Suffering alone inside of your mind from a terrifying mental disorder, is something that even those who battle such a thing every day, cannot fully understand. It's like being alone 24/7 yet it's never quiet inside of your head. You can't stop the voices. You can't control your emotions. As it gets worse, you lose control of your body all together. You become prey to your disease and You can't fight back. That is what it's like for someone who has spent years of their life suffering in silence from an eating disorder. Fighting a monster that you have no chance of beating. It's almost impossible to describe the type of torture that consumes your mind. Hell. It's equivalent to pure hell.

Parasites (Kellic) by trashyalexx

(Kellic) (boyxboy) Kellin gets sexually assaulted by a friend he thought he was able to trust. The worst part? Vic comes home and hears them in the bedroom, thinking Kellin's just cheating on him, so, he leaves a note and takes off, leaving Kellin completely broken. Kellin and Vic both start bands, who become widely known across the world. Over the next 7 years, Kellin struggles to find the light again. He refuses to date anyone other than Vic, but he knows Vic would never love him again, so Kellin turns to his eating disorder to help him cope with the issues he has to deal with and take on in life. When Kellin and Vic meet for the second time, to create 'King for a Day' and go on tour together due to popular demand, will they stay awkward or will they be able to mend their broken relationship? {This story was inspired by a roleplay written by me and @KellicBro. Go check her out, she's fuckin' awesome.}

Burning Desires by ICraveKink

They were both so determined to have me. So relentless in their chase. I tried to tell the both of them I couldn't do it. I didn't date. I didn't have sex. I didn't do anything other than what was expected of me. But neither would listen and It was impossible to choose. Both were so completely different. Bleu was calamity. He was whom I craved when I needed quiet and serenity; when I needed to laugh and smile and let go of stress. Bleu was a warm sunset on the horizon of calm waters. An artist whom sought a muse. A free spirit who didn't realize his own potential to make the world a better place. Bleu gave me something I'd never known before. He gave me peace. He gave me a purity. Lucien was the complete opposite; he was tortured and traumatized and so familiar to me. When I needed the voices and the anxieties to disappear, when I needed to feel absolutely nothing but ecstasy, I knew I needed Lucien. He fed a part of me that had been awakened years ago. He fed my anger, my rage, and my fear until I had none left. He also needed someone who understood all that he was, and all that he needed. I had little knowledge of the dating world but they knew that already, and it didn't matter to them. So, I had to do what I had to do in order to protect myself; to keep myself in check and not let my emotions and feelings get too involved. I was only so strong and when two incredible, irresistible, successful men popped up and teased me, taunted me, and begged for me, what the hell was I to do but experience them both... have them both? To have them both and live the lie. Keeping my friends and family whom I'd once shared everything with- on the outside of my personal life. Two chance meetings. One massive lie. And two irresistible men. This would be the biggest challenge Elysia Lockwood had ever faced before.

Ash by CheysArt23

Ash is a 17 year old girl. She's emo, anorexic, and doesn't like to be around a lot of people. She was arrested once for a mistake she made in the past, but she goes unnoticed most of the time. She gets adopted by a really cute guy, who's friend happens to live with him. She meets new people along the way and might even change her ways. She loves black and music such as: All Time Low, Falling In Reverse, Black Veil Brides, Green Day, The Cab, Sleeping With Sirens, The All-American Rejects, 5 Seconds of Summer, Simple Plan, A Rocket to the Moon, Skillet, Linkin Park, Fall Out Boy, Mayday Parade, Pierce The Veil, Bring Me The Horizon, Shinedown, Halestorm, Five Finger Death Punch, Paramore, Seether, Panic! At The Disco, Flyleaf, and Deviant. Those are just the ones I can think of at the moment. She starts falling for her "dad's" best friend, will Aaron let them date, or will he put a stop to it? Will Seth even like her, or is it all just a joke to him? She gets in an accident and things begin to change. Will she become a new person? Or will things stay the same?

The Twisted Mind by marvelousmayam

"I felt as if I didn't belong, And I felt as if i'm not sick enough" Alfie struggles with the concept of food. He loves it, he hates it and just wants to find peace with it and within himself. He wants to make up with his body, his mind but he's lost all control so he's finding it hard to live. Alfie Hailo, a 16 year old swimmer, has been struggling with food since the age of 13. His parents put him in dance class when he was 6 but he was getting bullied as he got older, so decided to quit and choose a more 'masculine' sport.His father also left the family home 2 years prior and has been struggling to understand why. He has amazing friends, and an amazing family who love and care for him dearly but, he doesn't feel this. He feels like he has to be perfect. With the pressure of school, and having to keep up to the social norms of a professional swimmer, it's hard for Alfie to concentrate. He needs the help. And to do this, Alvin helps. Alvin helps him find his worth, take control, and makes his life easier, or so he seems. His best friends, Killian and Ruby, know Alfie inside and out. They know his family life, school life. And this is because Alfie is a simple person. He has never had a detention, nor has he been expelled. He's a straight A student with no history of alcohol or drug abuse. Will they suspect anything? How will Alfie proceed with his excruciating pain. Will he cover it up or will he find the courage to speak up and seek help?

Emotional Amnesia by CAKerst

Sometimes when I say "I'm okay", I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say, "I know you're not". I have felt like this many times in my life; as a kid, teenager and as an adult. I have seen many things in my life and felt even more things that has been horribly depressing... But I got up. I stood up to walk on for another day. I dealt with my emotional amnesia the only way I knew I could and that was by writing it out into poetry. I wanted to forget my pain and forget what I was going through. I needed that cut of the blade or a pill to drink to take everything away. My poetry became both my pill and my blade... Now I share the most intimate part of myself with the world. The part of me I kept hidden in the closet. The part I never thought I would ever present to the world. Now is the time I have to stop having amnesia about my emotions. It is time to learn, to better myself and to stand up and remember the things that I shut out like a voluntary amnesia all these years. Those who are offended after reading this - f**k you! If you are sad with me and willing to cut your wrist - I know how you feel! If you just enjoy the words - I love you! #679 in Poetry on 17/03/2018 #779 in Poetry on 18/03/2018 #807 in Poetry on 19/03/2018 #474 in Poetry on 22/03/2018

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Constellations, Alex Gaskarth, All Time Low

What does she have that I don't? Alex tried to talk to me, but I ignored him and walked off. "Good luck man, when she's pissed, she doesn't stop being pissed for a few days." Gavin sympathizes with Alex. I don't want to tell anyone what happened, and I'm not going to. I wait for All Time Low to go on stage. I'm not gonna be a cunt and quit on him just because he did with me. I wait for a little while and then head out at my que, singing, bowing, and walking off and going to my bus. "If Alex comes by tell him I already went to bed. I don't want to talk to him." I mutter at the guys, going into the bathroom, taking off my makeup before climbing into bed in my sports bra and sweat pants. ●●●● Petal is a girl who loves music, and has always had a passion for it. She's in a band, touring with her favorite band around the world with her best friends. It's a little crazy, being a girl with bipolar depression around people who never seem to truly understand. Alex is a player just like Jack, only has been in a few serious relationships. He likes a challenge, and Petal is one hell of a challenge that he is scared to fall in love with. "You won't leave me, right?" I ask, tears in my eyes. "I won't ever, ever leave you. You help me line up things in my life, you and all the events in my life, have proven that it's all a big constellation." In this, Lisa and Alex never got married. Lisa won't be mentioned, she doesn't exist, I think she's too wonderful for anyone to talk bad about.