Black Glass Heart

How can i get past this hole situation with john how could he hurt me like this. After all we been through, he said he loves but leaves me? I love him because he is my first love and i dont think there is no one else for me. But how can i think that after all the shitt he put me through. What is a girl to do when she cant figure out how to get over a guy I know why we arn't together but i feel there is somthing more to the story, Only because of the love we had felt real. Am I wrong right or just crazy. john left jamie becuase he doesnt love her anymore or he is into somthing that he cant tell her about .Somthing that will get him into trouble, and in jail for life,or is he just caught up. You would think he would be smart and not get him self into trouble like that beacause he is in the ARMY !. Is someone covering for him or is he geting framed.