Mr.Popular and I

I smiled even though he couldn't see me,I ran my hand through his soft,slightly dry hair "I was afraid you wouldn't love me. I didn't want to hear you say that you no longer loved me or that...you never even loved me. I had to leave you before you left me. "

My heart poured itself out to him as I continued talking.

"At the time I didn't see it like a competition,but now that I think about it,it was a race. A race of the heart, we were both falling in love with each other and neither one of us wanted to get our hearts broken. The only difference was that you stayed,you were willing to take the risk,but I was being delusional. I ran away thinking that you were trying to outrace me. When you were still at the starting line wondering why I was leaving. I didn't want to risk getting my heart broken again. I felt like in order for me to stop loving you I had to leave you before you left me so I wouldn't have to go through the heartbreak. But I finally realized that getting rid of you wouldn't help anything,because it's ancient knowledge that the heart wants what it wants. By me leaving you it didn't just hurt you,but it hurt me too. I can't isolate someone I love and expect my love for them to die down. It doesn't matter if I liked it or not,I was... I am still in love with you,regardless. Distance does not make love disappear. I unfortunately learned that the hard way. I'm in love with you Jake and I'm willing to believe that you love me too."

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Happiness comes more from loving than being loved; and often when our affection seems wounded it is only our vanity bleeding. To love and to be hurt often,and to love again- this is the brave and happy life.
~J.E.Buckrose

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