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Last published Thu, Jan 24, 2019
so my name is cas and this is my brain. well, sort of. this is a collection of thoughts, poems andi moments captured at times in my life where writing has helped me significantly. i know that whilst compiling all these pieces it was fascinating and sad to see how i've changed and grown.
so basically this is a totally different, very cringey 'perks of being a wallflower' ;)
themes heavily revolve around love, anxiety, depression, grief, happiness and generally life's ups and downs. feel free to comment - i appreciate every single one :)
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