Fucked Up Yet Again...
decemberdae
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  • Reads 70
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  • Parts 9
  • Time 12m
decemberdae
Ongoing, First published Dec 21, 2018
Mature
breakemeaparthopefulihateyouiloveyouleavemindlessrealityscaredstaythoughtsofyouyours
how you make me feel sometimes kills me, but do I ever tell you that. No, I want all of your attention and love but i'm afraid that you will see right through me. You ask me what i'm thinking all the time, i always say nothing. Truthfully, on the inside i'm conflicted with everything that goes on. I don't want you too see the broken parts of my mind and already shattered heart. Yet you still come at me with a scalpel and flashlight ready to either put me back together or rip me apart.
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"You trust me, don't you?" he says with a smile, that smile. It had fooled everyone, even me at some point, and for the first time I want to scream with rage and shake the earth to the core. "Give me a hug," he says pulling me out of the chair that feels like a rock underneath me. I am as stiff as a board as his hands circle me, making me feel worse than dirt. His hands reach between my thighs and I want to plunge a knife deep through his chest. The only thing stopping me is, the knife is no where near. I pull back and I don't try to hide the anger in my eyes. I want him to see it. To know that I am coming for him. Rape is chanted repeatedly in my mind, reminding of the lies I just told and the false accusations I am throwing on innocent people. He's probably figured it out anyways, surely a Priest as high as he cannot be deceived. But none of that matters anymore because...... This is just the Beginning.

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