all I know is hurt.
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Last published Tue, Jun 16, 2015
my father killed so many people including my mom, and left me with all this emptiness, loneliness and anger.
what if people found out who I really was? I had no one except my auntie that took me in.
being a teenager with all my problems bundled up inside me is stressful and Ryan doesn't make it any easier but, I feel something for this boy........ can I trust him with the burden that rest on my shoulders? or will he just add to the rest of my pain.
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