Her Nightmare Prince

I am an iMMORAL PERSON. Love wasn't written in my vocabulary.
I can't talk w/out cursing, I always smoke weeds.
I love to kill persons and I love to continue doing that thing. My life turned into a trash until I met that stupid eyesore freak UGLY DUCKLIN' NERD!!!!

I always shout at her front everytime she fails to do my commands. I tried all my best efforts just to make he out of my sight. I've threatened her life TWICE, yes I did.But I always seek her presence everytime I want to see her. SUCKS!!!! What should I do?! This kind of feeling sucks.I HATE NERDY PERSONS LIKE HER BUT I ENDED UP FALLING WITH HER.
This nerd that came suddenly in my trashy life then changed my whole negative beliefs then suddenly leave me alone in my new miserable-happy life...