What If?

What if? What do you do when one day you get a call from your best friends mother, crying and trying to tell you that her son, your best friend, was just found dead on the ocean shore line. And you find out that he had done it on purpose. That he had commit suicide. What if I just asked him how he was? What if I asked if he was OK, or wanted to talk? What if I asked him if he had any problems going on?What if I payed more attention to the bags under his eyes that seemed to grow bigger and darker by the day?What if I asked him why he had become more shy, reserved? What if I asked him why he was always looking behind him?What if I payed more attention to the bruises on his arms and face that he would get every so often?Would he still be here with me on this gloomy day, playing video games with me?What if.. what if he did it because of me?I just can't help but think, what if he did it.. because of me? What if?

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