Little Love, Thousand Thoughts

Some say it’s good to leave things behind when you’ve endured pain. That leaving helps you forget and move on with life. With some pain, there is a certain beauty in forgetting and disappearing forever. For what feels like forever, but is only a moment, your pain is numbed in your heart. Then, that infuriating voice in your head proceeds to grow arrogance in forcing you to remember everything. With that arrogant voice, comes a confused soul and you somehow make your way back to the scene of the hurt. A house, building, street, city, family, person. You come searching for what most people call closure, a sense of resolution or conclusion. I never needed, nor wanted that closure, He just wanted to test me. That is my “closure”. They say it’s good to leave when you’ve endured pain, that it helps you to move on with life. The only condition with my pain is that what resulted from mine kept my life moving and my soul isn’t confused. It’s mad.