P.S. Because I Loved You.

Dear Ethan,
I write to tell you how much I miss you. I know that you will never read this but I feel comfort knowing that for once I'm being honest with you. It's the rest of the world that I lie to. But now my lies are getting out of control and I can't help it. People are starting to talk about you, especially at school. I feel like the secret is roaming the streets but I have to tell myself that only I know. I'm scared Ethan. What do I do? Where do I go? Mom and dad are getting louder everyday and the fighting is endless. Ethan I wish you were here.
Ethan, I'm so sorry..
It's all my fault.
I want to join you, but I'm too afraid.
I love you Ethan. I hope you know that. Everything I did was for you and it was because I loved you.
Your blood still stains on my hands and I cry myself to sleep everyday in fear that someone will find out.
Ethan......why did you make me do this?
Rosalie