Caution: mention of drugs, harming oneself and spy baddass. You were the first but suddenly, everything has changed. Boys aren't as faithful nor loyal as before, even though, how beautiful, kind, and sweet you are, once they encounter another girl that is way more better than you, they will probably choose that girl. But what if, she is the girl that is so close to you? What if, that is the girl that you treat as a part of your life? What if, she is the girl that is more of a sister to you? Are you going to choose love than friendship? Or friendship than love? Are you willing to give up your happiness? Or are you going to fight on what is yours? I was the first. Your first.