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Suicidal thoughts/ depressing thoughts/ random bursts of anger will occur in these stories
Was it intentional? Why would you let it go this far? You've broken me to pieces that cannot fix. --
I write in a "slam poetry" kinda way. If you read it like that, it may make more sense.
--- This story will contain rants, poems, short stories, and a ton of feelings that I have poured onto the pages. This is one place that I can let go
of everything, and not be terrified of certain people disapproving. With that being said, please enjoy (or despise, your choice) these deep, dark feelings of mine. You're getting a glimpse of how badly some people have hurt me/random times of depression and bad thoughts Please do not feel sorry for me, I do not want that, I simply want to share my feelings without confronting anyone directly.
I am in NO way a professional writer. Stories will be all over the place, and may not make total sense. There is no certain order in which to read them, so go crazy.
Less depressing chapters include "the love", "explanation", "stars", "worst enemies",
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Evolution
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