Blue Robinsen is a mess. She's doing horrible in school, her parents fights are effecting her more than she thinks they should, and she's dating all the wrong guys. When she should be out having fun as a normal teenager, she has to look after her older brother Ronnie, making sure he doesnt drink himself dead. Plus, she has to decide what she's going to do with herself before she turns eighteen and is kicked to the curb.
Elliot Smith is also a mess. Don't get me wrong, he's doing great in and outside of school, has landed himself captain of the football team, and has colleges all over the country begging him to attend their school. But the problem is that he's been in love with a girl for seven years that never notices him. He's fantasized about her for years, but she only sees him as a friend.
When the two bump into each other in the alleyway of a bowling alley, Blue feels the need to help Elliot get the girl, and Elliot has a feeling that before he does anything, he has to sort out the disastor that is Blue Robinsen's life. Over the course of the weeekend, they both realize that what they're looking for might be right in front of them.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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