Perennial Blooms

June 6th, 1972
I know what I did was utterly selfish, and I'm so sorry. I did it out of fear I think, fear of looking at my little sisters with faces full of wrinkles and still looking like a babyfaced teen, and Edward I'm truely sorry, really. I know we talked about this and you said it would be ok and that this is what you wanted, but I knew that wasn't true. I should have said something, told you I wanted to live forever with you, but I didn't. I guess I'm just not that brave. For this very reason I don't think we were ever meant to be, you deserve much better than me. I love you with all my heart, really Ed you are the most special person I have yet to meet, but I couldn't let my family live without me. They need me now, hopefully more than you ever will. But I know there is going to be someone out there, someone better than me, who can love you fully, without distraction. And boy are they going to take your breath away [even if you don't actually breath ; ) ]. I'm just sorry I won't be there to see it. Here is to finding your happy ending.

With utmost love and admiration,
Winnie Jones

P.S. Please tell Alice the garden is doing wonderfully.