*please read introduction first* *first book of the trilogy* Matthew is a 16-year-old that shares his best befriend Charlie with his enemy Collin. But is Collin everything Matthew believes? Collin is older than Matthew by only four months and there has been competition between him and Matthew ever since Matthew moved to the same school as him. Matthew has just ignored ever trying to be friends with Collin up until it's Collin's birthday. The story starts on Collin's birthday, January 7th, and sparks seem to fly. Will they be able to put hate a side and cross the line towards love or will the past haunt them too much to settle things out? A year ago Collin went into custody to his uncle Victor because of the death of his father. Most would be sad at their father's death but he was relieved. Why is the question Matthew has asked and he has always wondered how he is able to be okay with so much attention. A/N: This story contains flashbacks that talk about rape and death along with self harming and sexual harassment. This book was written to encourage mental health and encourage different types of coping mechanisms other than self harm.