Giving up on life
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Last published Fri, Dec 19, 2014
Despite one hate compared to the love i started to think if it was worth to live. I don't have any goals in the future and i don't have any good reason to stay... I'm tired of him telling me what to do and what should i not do, its like i do not have an utter control of my life. All i want to do is suicide, maybe ill find my freedom there when I'm gone, that's all i could think of but something changed my mind and i realized maybe there is some hope for me in this hopeless place.
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