Who Are You Now?
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Amanda used to be a fun-loving, popular cheerleader. One day, she met a guy. Not just any guy, the guy she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. He wasn't easy to get, and she ended up changing her whole life just to be with him. Drugs, alcohol, and love ruled her life. That was... until a few tragic accidents ripped her life apart. Amanda lost all four of her friends in a few weeks, and her alcoholic mother didn't know what to do, so Amanda was sent to live with her dad and little sister, Alexa, after three years of little to no contact with them. To top it off, her dad is ashamed of Amanda and Alexa holds a grudge for living with their mother instead of her.
Amanda knows the best thing to do is to just try to get through her second try at senior year as an invisible girl. She doesn't want to hurt anyone else, and she doesn't want to be hurt. But how will that be possible when she bumps into her old flame, her first flame? And what about her mysterious, flirty neighbor? Amanda wants to keep her distance, but her want for human contact and acceptance outweighs anything else in her mind. She strives to be the same girl she was three years ago, but with everything that had happened to her is it possible?
Join Amanda on her journey as she tries to find out who she is.
"Don’t, don’t, don’t wake me up, ‘cause I hate who I am today. So come on, come on and just take, take, take what you want. Isn't that what we’re living for? We’re always wanting more. You've made me hate my own reflection, question every choice I make. So I could try to be perfect, I won't try to be fake. So forgive me ‘cause I really couldn't care less that this world has changed me" -Sleeping With Sirens
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