Beautiful Pain
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Last published Fri, Sep 6, 2019
I breath heavily as I sprint down the hallway, I keep a tight grip on strings of my hoodie, making sure it doesn't fall off my head. Tears threaten to spill from my eyes, I hear him screaming my name from behind me, his heavy footsteps chasing after me.
"KALANI PLEASE!"
"KALANI STOP!"
I stop running and I turn to look at him, he stands in front of me, he goes to hold my hands but I swiftly pull them towards my body.
"Your a liar! Your an asshole Jordan! You fucking promised me! You promised me you wouldn't be like all the others!" I yell
Hurt, sadness and regret are only some of the emotions I see in his brown eyes.
"Kalani I'm not them-"
"No your fucking worse! That stunt you just pulled, IS A THOUSAND TIMES WORSE THAN WHAT EVERYONE ELSE HAS DONE!"
"Kalani it wasn't what it seemed, please just trust me, let me explain." He pleads
I let out an unamused, sarcastic laugh.
"I think I've given people too many chances, and I think I've let enough people explain." I stare at him blankly
"Kalani, please." Jordan whispers, on the verge of crying.
"YOUR A LIAR! YOU HURT ME WHEN YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULDN'T! YOU LIED STRAIGHT TO MY FACE! THE OTHER NIGHT WHEN YOU TOOK ME TO YOUR 'SPECIAL' PLACE AND YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME! I FUCKING BELIEVED YOU!" I scream
"I DIDN'T LIE! AND I'M NOT LYING NOW! FUCK KALANI I DO LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS!" He yells, he runs a hands through his hair and sighs.
"Maybe love isn't enough, maybe I'm not enough." I mutter
His eyes widen.
"Kalani you are more than enough-"
"Really? Is that what you were thinking when you did what you did? I've been hurt too many times and the time I decide to open up I get stepped on yet again, I guess I should just learn to embrace my pain! Since I'm always emotionally in it! BEAUTIFUL PAIN! BEAUTIFUL FUCKING PAIN!"
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