But I am Hurting

This is how it all started, 4 years ago my mother passed away. She was the only one that accepted me for who I am. My father was an alcoholic, and was very abusive. My mother married him when she was 18 years old thinking she was in love, well her honeymoon night, when most newly weds are making love for the first time, nice and sweetly, my mom was raped by her new husband. Then she realized the mistake she had made. A month after the Honeymoon she found out she was pregnant with me, and decided to stay with my father. However he didn't like the idea of her being pregnant because she would get "fat" and "I only married you for your body" as he would say all the time. Well things didn't go the way that he had planned, 8 months later, there I was. A new baby girl.

My name is Alexandria rose, most just call me Lexi. I'm like most Lexi's out there, yes I have blonde hair, yes I have blue eyes, but no I'm not "preppy" or "bitchy" or even "popular". I'm just me, boring old me. Well anyways, when my mom died I ran away from home because my father became more abusive because "I was the reason for my mothers death" I'm not even going to keep secrets from you guys, her death was my fault. So here is my story.