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Not in Paradise

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Parts 7
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Reads 137
Votes 52
Parts 7
Time <5 mins

Mature

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For the first time the author, Joelle, decides to show his picture as a book cover to follow the sequel to state of mind, Not in Paradise it's a book that continues to give more insides in a story already told; inspired in cold nights and dark minds but with a more matured writing. There's so much more to the story that was never told, being narrated from different perspectives and darker topics never touched in the first book already mentioned.



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This is very rough and cruel, if you consider yourself as a sensitive or you're very vulnerable to this type of themes? Please keep discretion and think twice before you decide to read this book.All Rights Reserved

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