Turbulence

A friend told me that when you will not or can not express what you feel inside, due to fear of the consequences, you should pen it down.

I am scared, sometimes lonely and always tired. When the weariness strikes, it stikes me hard. But I can't stop, won't stop, because I cannot bear failure. I have to be the best.

I am a contradiction and this is the turbulence I face every single day.