When Will It be me?

I love him, but he love her.
I choose him, but he choose her.
I chase him but he run away chasing her.
I'm hurting but he doesn't care,
He always care for her but never "me".

When will it be me?....

When will it be me, the one he loves?
When will it be me, the one he choose?
When will it be me, the one he chase after?
When will it be me, the one he cares a lot?

I gave everything to him but receive nothing in return.
He say I'm his world but "her" is his universe.
I am so indepth with the pain he cause me.
Every time I look at him looking at her.
Every time He smile because of her.
The way he talks, the way he stare, the way he laugh with the certain joke she make, the way he adore those simply things she do and make.
Its like a million syringe ready to inject with me.
And its painful.

I don't know on how can I bear the pain.
I don't know on how can I suppress my feelings just to look fine in front to him, in front of them.
I don't know on how to stop loving him, because if I can, I already did.
But I can't, unloving him was the worst part.

Its like I always drag my self to pain but what else should I do?
The answer is simple,
I love him..

I love him even he loves her.
I love him even he choose her.
I love him even he chase her.
I love him even he only cares for her.
I love him even he does't look at me the way he stare at her.
I love him even he desires her.

And I love him even.....

IT WILL NEVER BE "ME"
WHEN WILL IT BE ME?