Emotions {TVD}

"I have these new emotions. Like I will lose something. But I keep telling myself 'Maya if you don't have anything to lose, you can't do it'"
"It's like you know that trouble will come, but you still go forward"
"I don't want this, Do you want it?"
"I want a sister who doesn't thinking about herself just for a minute"
"You're a selfish bitch"
"I never though I will be happier than that day"
"I will never love you"

These moments passed through my mind, before my eyes shut down thinking 'This is it. I'm going to die and no one will care. I have no one, not after I pushed away everyone. I though my life would be good after I come home. But everything turned upside down when they died. They died because of her. She was a selfish bitch who I will never forgive. I just wanted to be with them until my final days'

Please don't judge! I was thinking about doing this a very long time ago, like since I started watching TVD, and it was like 2 or 3 years ago. And since English isn't my first language, the updates will come slower than I wanted. I would be really thankful if you would write down in the comments, what you think about it. You can be harsh as well, if it will help my story.

THERE WILL BE ALSO STRONG LANGUAGE!