I'm hanging in between

I am hanging in between.
The land is my new future
and the ocean is my deep down past .
I wish to leave the ocean and walk on the land with new hopes in my new world as a new me , but at the same time I'm afraid to loose the ocean .
So,
I'm hanging in between.

Too afraid to leave the ocean as it's all i ever had
and not courageous enough to walk on the land
as I'm afraid i forgot how to walk.

SoI'm hanging in between.

Looking for answers while keeping my eyes closed
Cause I'm tired of looking
I don't want to see anymore.
I just hear the sounds of the waves as they come and go
And each time they try take me with them into the ocean .
And the land is not ready to leave me either .

So I'm hanging in between.

Maybe one day I'll look up and see the land as it's all i ever want
And then I'll stop the foolishness
Looking while my eyes closed and blaming that it's always dark
and for once I'll keep my eyes open
See the light for real
Not just hear bout it in the stories
Maybe it will happen one day
But for now
I'm hanging in between
Neither fully on land nor in the ocean
Just in between .