Letters for my ex, lessons to me

Lesson 1

Don't be a fool

I guess I should've known you were danger when you said you told the other woman in your life not to be a fool, to not fall for you. But I guess I thought I was smarter.. I thought since I wasn't looking for love it wouldn't find me.. was I wrong. I asked you once if you could go back and stop us from meeting, would you? You said no, then you asked me the same, though I said no, I really meant yes, I realize now that you said no because there was no pain in it for you, you only pretended to be attached to me, yet I gave so much to you, so much of my time, so much of my attention, my thoughts, my patience, my body.. I guess it's true what they teach you in school huh? that when you put glue on two pieces of paper and stick them together and then tear them apart, pieces of the papers will remain on each other. Silly me for thinking some piece of me remained in you.. I don't even hate you for what you did to me, and in some messed up way I still need you, what is it about you that I can't erase? Is it the way you liked me better without the makeup and the lace fronts? Or was it the way you hugged me tight whenever I needed it? Was it cause you were always sweet to me? Or was it cause you said I love you that day and it all went away? You warned me right? don't be a fool, But young, naive, Foolish me didn't listen.