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The Secret Struggle

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Time 10h 49m

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Promise is currently attending Bible college, but she has a problem. She is really addicted to pornography and erotica, and masturbates extremely frequently. She struggles to stop because of the school rules and her own conscience, but she just can't. One day she meets a boy and is invited to hang out with him and some of his friends who attend a Christian college not far away. As she hangs out with them she is introduced to the world she always fantasized about, but never had the courage to go into. She slowly gets pulled into some of their ways.

How far will she go? Will she be able to keep up with school? Will she get kicked out? What does her future hold?

Note: The chapters were originally written as censored and uncensored, because Wattpad had made them private, but they appeared to have changed those rules. However, I will be keeping a censored and uncensored version where all "offensive" words have * placed in them for any who might prefer to read writing as such.All Rights Reserved

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