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I Am [NOT] A Monster (Suicidal AU/ KiriBaku Fanfic)

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WARNING!!

THIS BOOK INCLUDES;

- Self harm
- Suicidal thoughts
- Suicide attempts
- Cursing
- Blood & Gore
- Violence
- & Angst (Maybe -_-)
(I have no clue why this still says maybe. This book is full of that lovely angst)

If your sensitive to any of these topics I suggest you don't read this book.

Bakugou isn't happy. He's never been happy. His anger is due to him keeping his true feelings inside, hiding them with pills to keep the horrible thoughts away. He'll never open up though. No one except his family knows about his troubles, and he'd like to keep it that way.

He'll use his bottled up pain, and lash out without meaning to. Nightmares that scare him, cause him to stay away and not get close to anyone. Out of fear of being hurt. He's scared. Not scared of what's around him though...

He's scared of himself...

Most chapters will be 1000+ words!

My awesomely awesome cover is made by @-_Lenn_- (Thank you again Lenn!)All Rights Reserved

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Bakugou's Poem (depressed/suicidal/abused Bakugou) by AngryOne1

COMPLETE!!! Bakugou knows nobody likes him. He knows they are all lying when they say they do. He knows they could not care less. He knows he is worthless, weak, and cruel. He knows he should not be how he is. He knows they would all be better off without him. Or: Bakugou has to present a poem and the class finds out how he really feels. I do not own any characters from BNHA, the anime itself, nor the pictures on this story, though the story written on here is mine! My first fanfic and thank you to anyone who reads! Any and all criticism appreciated! I absolutely loved writing this, it's my baby!! XD Go check out my new story, Rehabilitating Bakugou!! -Angry Started: February 5, 2020 Ended: February 11, 2020 Rankings!!! #2 kiribaku Feb 25, 2020 #4 kiribaku Aug 7, 2020 #1 class1-a Feb 22, 2020 #2 bakusquad March 7, 2020 #1 idontknowhatimdoing Feb 22, 2020 #1 depressedbakugou Feb 22, 2020

Breaking Apart Softly - Kiribaku by Xxshiplord16Xx

DISCONTINUED Eijirou Kirishima is depressed. He doesn't know why, and he doesn't know how to stop it, but he doesn't want to be a burden on everyone else so he keeps it hidden. Like most people do. But it's getting to be too much and it's effecting his normal persona. He also has a crush on Katsuki Bakugou- and, would you look at that! Bakugou likes him back! Their relationship moves fast and Kirishima seems to forget his biggest secret. And after that comes: Therapy. Hospital visits. Doctors offices. Worrying parents. Worrying friends. Worrying boyfriends. And so the best thing that Kirishima can think of is to lie.. to get back the happiness that everyone used to feel around him. To destroy that weird awkward feeling of worry that he senses whenever he is around anyone. He just hopes that maybe if he lies to others enough about what's really going on, then maybe he'll start convincing himself. That maybe, just maybe, the problems will go away. WARNING! This story contains: Smut Self harm Suicidal thoughts and actions Depression Anxiety Panic attacks If these topics trigger you, please do not read on! Lastly, this story is very close to home for me. I know what I'm talking about with the feelings that Eijirou feels, and I know how these things work. I've been hesitant to post this story for a while because I was worried of what people would say about all of it. A good amount of this story is me telling some of my experiences with depression, self harm, anxiety, etc. through Kirishima. All I ask of you as a reader is to please be kind in the comments. Honestly, as cheesy as it sounds, be kind to everyone. You really don't know what they are secretly going through. (Please feel free to message me if you feel any of the negative things that I talk about in this book. I am not a professional, but I have gone through these things and may be able to give you some advice, or at least be there for you to talk to.) Now, please enjoy this book.

Tired of pretending (kiribaku) by Blastyboi_1

Katsuki Bakugo is tired, tired of feelings so fucking pathetic. He's a shitty person, with an even shittier life. It's what he deserves, isn't it? Funny how fate has a way of balancing the scale. He'll never be a pro-hero, not when he's barely surviving each day he has to put up with his mother. But he's not asking for pity, Katsuki Bakugo can take care of himself. And no one needs to know anything, they need to keep their damn mouths shut, or else they'll see the wall he's built up is slowly tumbling down. This is Kiribaku btw is the title didn't give it away. !!!Disclaimer: this is a four year old work and written in first person. It's not my best to say the least but I'm leaving it because it was an important part of my writing journey (although I'm not putting "angsty Bakugo fanfic" on any portfolio ʅ（◞‿◟）ʃ) I rewrote the summary because I hated it but mostly everything else is remaining unchanged because I'm too lazy to edit a 70k story. Be warned this is in first person and this fic does cover some serious topics (how well it does that it up to you). Thank you for continuing if you chose to do so and I appreciate all the support this fic has gotten it was certainly an experience : )!!!

Smile [a Denki angst] BakuKami by TRYTAKINGMEDOWN

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ Mentions of: -abuse -cutting -suicidal toughs and acts -rape -cursing -mental illnesses -mineta -illegale activities ----- When Denki's mother commits suicide, and his father's already aggressive behavior becomes even worse after he starts drinking, he loses everything. His father spends al their money on drinking and playing around. They lose their house and job and Denki has to work for them to survive. Besides all the abuse and suffering, he is also slowly losing his mind after extensive use from his quirks. The only thing keeping him company is the little voice in his head that keeps getting louder and louder every day. Until his classmates notice how the blond has changed. Will they be able to save him before he breaks? ----- I'm not joking around because I want to. I just can't bear to see my classmates sad. I'm not smiling because I'm not hurt. I just want to make sure you guys feel better. I'm not never hurting. I just can't bother to show it anymore. It hurts. It hurts so bad. A story where Denki isn't all smiles and innocent. Where he has his own story to tell. And where a certain aggressive and explosive blond slowly but surely noticed the slight changes in behavior. ----- Ranks: #1 in kaminari #1 in Denki #1 in bakukami #1 in harm #1 in depressie #1 in Sero #2 in bakusquad #2 in bakugouxkaminari #3 in Bakugou #4 in depression #7 ik depressie #7 in angst

Thoughts by imsodumngl

Bakugo is always rude to everyone. Loud, rough, mean, and hateful. But that's just a mask he puts on every time he leaves his room. The thoughts are always there, the voices and words. They won't shut up. They won't stop telling the truth. Everyone is out to get the aspiring hero, and his mind won't let him trust anyone. Not even his best friends... ~WARNINGS~ Mentions of: +Suicidal thoughts+ +Self-harm+ +Self-starvation+ +Self-deprecation+ +Depression+ +Panic attacks+ +Losing sense of reality+ I am not romanticizing these problems. If you have/are doing any of these things, please do the opposite of what Katsuki does in this book, and please go talk to someone. You're an amazing human, and you shouldn't hurt yourself over what you think people think of you. Everything in this is practice. My goal for this book is to give you that stomach drop that most angst stories do. I'm not very good at that, so let's see how I do, lmao. (AO3 gets updated faster than here)

Starry Night Sky [KiriBaku Fanfic] by Murasaki_Roll

[Completed] Angsty chapters with funny and irrelevant titles that I put in there to confuse people. Welcome to what I consider my best and maybe even longest KiriBaku book! Bakugou is a scholarly artist with severe anger issues and a traumatic past involving his mother. Kirishima is a nice guy that he sees as trustworthy enough to be vulnerable around once the book progresses. Mutual pining enters the chat. ⚠️Story includes-Strong language, depression, anxiety, violence, homophobia, postpartum, and other mature themes that may not be suitable for some readers.⚠️ ‼️Readers Discretion Is Advised‼️ No quirk college AU. I don't own boku no hero academia!

Bakugo's 5 day deal by ReallyTiredLol

I'm honestly ashamed of this book. I wrote it some time ago and it just has so many things wrong in it and is overall cringe. I am planning to write a different and better version of this in the near future. And hey, maybe you should follow me to see when it comes out ;) !!!STRONG SUICIDE TRIGGER WARNING!!! Midoriya was walking home at around 11pm, after picking up some groceries for his mom. He sighed, knowing he would have to wake up early for school tomorrow. He walked on the small bridge, looking at the bright, full moon. It was a beautiful night. He turned his head facing forward, his eyes locking on the body in front of him. "K-Kacchan?" The ash-blonde whipped his head to where the shorter boy stood, piercing red eyes meeting soft dark green ones. There he was. The loud, brash, cocky Katsuki Bakugo, sitting on the concrete wall of the bridge, with his shoes off and wallet out, ready to jump off and end his life at any moment. . . "You know what, lets make a deal."

Where's My Happy Ending (Sad Bakugo) by Not_Very_Smart_52

Years would pass without the knowledge of who Katsuki Bakugo was. His story untold. The real one. The facade of anger and pride was just that. A facade. A face he would put on to impress society. To try and please his parents. Relieve the pressure put on his shoulders. But depression is a nasty bitch. And it doesn't matter who you are, it will come and ruin your life. Show your true feelings to everyone, because once you are too exhausted to put up walls, it all comes crumbling down. Heyyy! So, I've read this unfinished book, and wanted to continue it. The book was written by @-_SpicyPeppers_- till chapter five, then @ bakubitchh7 continued it before stopping at chapter 12! I wanna continue it, so hear I am. I'll try my hardest to write it well.

What Happened to me? (Depressed Bakugo X Kirishima by BakuB0tt0mReligion

This is a story about a depressed, abused, and suicidal Bakugo. When he was saved from the villains he started acting differently much more quiet and less....Bakugo. What happens when his Closest friends the bakusqaud find cutting? What will Kirishima think? Will they help him through the pain?...will Kirishima, or will they sit back while Their friend is dying inside committing suicide? Read to find out. ⚠️WARNING⚠️ Includes: Cutting/other self harm Abuse Suicide thoughts Rape Kidnapping Tempt of suicide AND MORE EMOTIONAL STUFF!! If you are sensitive to these kind of things...do. Not. Read. Thank you! Enjoy.

Thanks, But Its To Late (Suicidal Bakugo X Kirishima) by dont_question

Bakugo is suicidal and has been his whole life cause he has horrible parents that abuse him and used to get bullied until he became the bully and bullied people so they can "feel his pain" until he meets Kirishima. Quirks are in this story but are barley used Spelling errors 🤣 ⚠⚠ No cursing ⚠⚠Talks about self harm and abuse ⚠⚠Talks about blood ⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠Suicide is mentioned a lot!!!!! PLZ READ!!!!! Ok so I gotta say this SUCKS I made this so long ago and I did not know how to actually write correctly so there are many errors and things that don't make sense so yes I'm sorry that this will be pretty stupid 😂 but hey if you wanna read go ahead and PLZ READ THE LAST PAGE THERE IS A EXTRA ONE AT THE END!!!! thank you have a great day 💖 Update(7/9/22): Srsly why are y'all reading this still 💀 it's so badddddddd high chance imma redo this whole book but make it a "new book" just so this one is still here- but idk honestly I might forget-

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Bakugou's Poem (depressed/suicidal/abused Bakugou) cover

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Tired of pretending (kiribaku) cover

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Starry Night Sky [KiriBaku Fanfic] cover

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Thanks, But Its To Late (Suicidal Bakugo X Kirishima) cover

Bakugou's Poem (depressed/suicidal/abused Bakugou)

COMPLETE!!! Bakugou knows nobody likes him. He knows they are all lying when they say they do. He knows they could not care less. He knows he is worthless, weak, and cruel. He knows he should not be how he is. He knows they would all be better off without him. Or: Bakugou has to present a poem and the class finds out how he really feels. I do not own any characters from BNHA, the anime itself, nor the pictures on this story, though the story written on here is mine! My first fanfic and thank you to anyone who reads! Any and all criticism appreciated! I absolutely loved writing this, it's my baby!! XD Go check out my new story, Rehabilitating Bakugou!! -Angry Started: February 5, 2020 Ended: February 11, 2020 Rankings!!! #2 kiribaku Feb 25, 2020 #4 kiribaku Aug 7, 2020 #1 class1-a Feb 22, 2020 #2 bakusquad March 7, 2020 #1 idontknowhatimdoing Feb 22, 2020 #1 depressedbakugou Feb 22, 2020