Why I am becoming a Wiccan

I get we all have hard lives and we chose to deal with it in different ways, this is mine.
It started when I was 22 and I had just been dumped by the love of my life. I was devastated and I cried a lot... I still do. I had stumbled across the Tarot cards I had and wanted to know more. As well as because a day or so before I met the boy who is now my ex; I wanted to kill myself I had lost all hope in life, so I had asked God to send me a sign. The night that I was going to kill myself; I had every means to do it, I was just about to do, I looked up and remember saying "it's now or never" I was reaching for the bottle and my phone went off. I stopped and looked; mind you this was back when guys weren't all about getting nudes and being just all around jerks to girls. We where like sixteen or seventeen when we got together, we were together for almost 5 years. it killed me to not have him in my life anymore, it's been a few months since I've talked to him, I just can't get him out of my head.

Long story short I got my heart-broke, was depressed and it felt like something woke up in me.