Melancholy Heart

"Calvin"

Everyone keep on asking me "Why Calvin? Why him?". Simple answer. I love him, of course, but better than that I choose him, day after day and God knows I do. He's not the typical perfect boyfriend, he's not the ideal guy either.

He doesn't have the looks or the perfect handsome face, he doesn't spoil me on expensive things or materials, he doesn't take me to a place that looks like paradise, a park will do.

He lied many times, he always find excuses every time he gets bored talking to me, sometimes his excitement is caught on mobile legends and any other online games than having late night talks with me, there are times he chose his friends over me like "bro's before hoes", his honesty is not hundred percent pure, he talks to a bunch of girls, he fooled me not once, not twice, but multiple times.

And yes, he hurt me many times. He ruined my trust and he broke my heart and crashed my soul. No one can ever replace the pain that he caused me. I do admit that I'm tired of crying and sick of trying. I'm fading away slowly and he aren't even noticing. I'm so afraid of losing him but I'm losing myself in the process, I'm still acting natural but the truth is I'm dying inside.

And after all the bad things he had done, I still chose to stay, still willing to take risk. 'Cause when you love, you always find reasons to understand the pain and as dark as I am, I always find enough light to adore him to pieces, with all my pieces.

I know that I deserve better, I know that there are bunch of boys whose willing to win my heart and sniff the sweet aroma of my love, but no one has captured my heart like my Calvin did.

He is my significant other, my imperfectly perfect other half, the man one who broke my heart but the only one who can fix it, my man, my Calvin.

-A Lady with a Melancholy Heart ♥