A Day at Work
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Last published Fri, Feb 1, 2019
My sister told me today about inner monologues and that some can be more hateful than others. This sounded weird to me, until I payed closer attention to it while I was at work and realized I have an extremely hateful internal monologue.
Here is about ten minutes of what happened in my head during that time.
I'm writing this because it's really helping me see it clearly, and I'm posting it so that others can maybe become aware of their own. (Usually I don't notice it at all and just get really tired easily.)
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