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Publikasi terakhir Sel, Feb 12, 2019
Most people think that teenagers just act up because they want attention . Well let me change that mind set and prove to you that its not true
My teenage years are just a big pain , I can't control.
I had no one to talk too .
I had no one to share my pain with .
I always faked a smile
But
Now I'm ready for my truth .
Forgive me mom I couldn't hide any longer . I promise you this has nothing to do with you, its just my truth , my painful truth .
My pain
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