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To Drown in Grief

ArabianAphrodite

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Reads 78
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Parts 16
Time 2h 25m

ArabianAphrodite

adult british death depression england love romance

All I knew was that there were little waves, not enough to actually kill me, out in the ocean. Sure, it was an accident that I got pulled under but I did little, almost none, with trying to save myself. I thought of how I almost gave up down there. To be honest, I did give up. If not for this man, I would've been dead right now. I looked over to him, "Thank you."
He gawked at me, as if he was observing an alien that just landed on earth. "Were you?"
I furrowed my brows, "Was I what?"
"Trying," he said, "to kill yourself."
I looked away and bowed my head down and started crying.
"Hey," he moved closer to me and wrapped his arms around me, rubbing my back even more. "Hey, I'm sorry, okay? I didn't mean to pry."
"I... I'm sorry, you can leave now. I can take it from here," I tried to dismiss his worries but to no avail.
As I wept, he wiped the tears from my face, "You want me to leave so you can waltz right back in the ocean? No way."

A STORY OF PAIN, HOPE, AND HEALING...All Rights Reserved

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My Husband is a phyco by roadster123

" I love you " He said while smiling and coming towards me. I started to take back steps. My eyes is full of tears. I am shivering and scared to see him. Suddenly I got hit by wall. I am about to escape. He pulled me and pinned to wall. " AH.... " I yelled loudly. His danger eyes, His Smile, His voice making me scare more. His touch. I am literally shivering more and more. He slowly placed his hand on my face. My eyes rolled towards his hand. No.... No... No... please.... leave me. " Are you okay ? Why are you crying ? " He said in sad tone. I started to cry badly. " Don't cry " He said calmly wiping my tears. He started to stare at me. He is so close to me. I ignored him and just crying with all my heart. " I said don't cry " He said a little anger in his voice. He removed his hands from me and placed his both hands on his head. He is about to get angry. " DON'T CRY !!!! " This time he shouted so loudly. My heart stopped a second. He hit the wall with his hand angrily. His hand is bleeding. " I... I... can't see you cry. I won't let you cry. No...No.... I... love you.. I love you " I seen a vibration in his voice. small tears are in his eyes. This is not a love. It is mad. " You are mine " He said and smiled at me. He took my hand. I am so scared of him. I am about to take back my hand. He looked at me angrily. He pulled my hand to him. He started to stare at wedding ring. He slowly kissed my ring. A shiver hit in my heart. " My wife " He said smiling at me and pulled me into a tight hug. I closed my eyes tightly and started to cry. This is not love. It's physco. YOU ARE A PHYSCO !!!!! MR. WILSON WIKE !!!!!

Unlikely by art_lovin_ary

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A living THING by SBany89

"B... Bryce?" I said quietly between my light sobs. He didn't answer me. He looked dangerous. His hands covered in blood, his jaw damaged, his eyes... I didn't know, what exactly I saw in them, but I knew, there was nothing good. I realized, I might be in danger myself. I had no idea of what is going on in his mind. I started walking away, keeping my body close to the wall behind me. I stumbled on some trash, but gained my balance back, never leaving the sight of him - now, a total stranger, in front of me. He slowly followed me, his eyes registering every movement I made. They looked predatory, all his appearance looked like it. Following every movement of his pray. And I knew that pray was me. Some cries left my dry lips. I couldn't hold in anymore of this tension. I turned around and started to run, run away from this place, away from him. Before I could make some steps, I felt my upper arm grabbed strongly. I let out a scream and desperately tried to free myself from his strong grip. Bryce took my other arm and made me face him. My heart dropped in my stomach, as I saw his hard stare. I stopped for a second, but then tried to get myself away from him again. "Stop trying! You are not going anywhere!" I heard his voice, which was said through his clenched teeth. He momentarily turned me around and grabbed my hole upper body and wrapped his strong arms around me, making it impossible to move my hands and myself. I started to scream again, but again, his fast movements stopped me. I felt him squeeze me tighter. He lifted me up from the ground a bit and put his large hand on my mouth. That made my panic rise even more. I was so afraid. I had no idea of what he is going to do with me. Is he going to kill me? I felt his head resting against my head, his breath touching the top of my ear, sending a strong shiver of fear through my body. I couldn't see anything, as my eyes were filled with endless streams of tears.

Are you okay? by tiarobinswrites

She wanted to die. He wanted to live. ••• A hand grabbed onto my wrist, yanking me back just as the train rushed past, before I'd even had time to comprehend whether or not I'd carry out the action. I stumbled back into the person's chest, my heart jumping out as I swivelled around, startled to find myself staring into piercing dark brown eyes. "Were you going to jump?!" "No," I drawled out sarcastically, ignoring the intensity of his eyes as they bore into my own, "I just stand on the edge of train platforms at midnight because I feel like it." Seeing the stranger tense, I stepped away from the edge, feeling his hand let go of mine as I picked up my bag before moving to sit down on one of the platform benches. Letting out an evident sigh of relief, he sat down after tentative movements towards me, and I could feel his intense gaze raking across my features. His eyes never left me, I was sure of it, with every step both he and I had taken. "Are you okay?" He had asked warily, apparent apprehension in his deep voice while he spoke, "Do you want to talk about it?" "What's there to talk about?" I threw his question back at him, watching him study me for a few critical moments before his potent gaze switched to our surroundings. "I did just watch you nearly kill yourself; that might be a place to start?" ••• She didn't expect for a complete stranger to stop her milliseconds away from committing suicide. She didn't expect him to be so kindhearted and patient. He didn't expect to stop her from jumping in front of a train the first time they met. He didn't expect to find himself falling for the one girl he knew he shouldn't. [Word Count: 180,000 - 200,000]

the accident by iwanttowriteforever

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Decadent by DystopianMilieu

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Finding Purpose (+18) ✔️ by ZaynismRules

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My Husband is a phyco

" I love you " He said while smiling and coming towards me. I started to take back steps. My eyes is full of tears. I am shivering and scared to see him. Suddenly I got hit by wall. I am about to escape. He pulled me and pinned to wall. " AH.... " I yelled loudly. His danger eyes, His Smile, His voice making me scare more. His touch. I am literally shivering more and more. He slowly placed his hand on my face. My eyes rolled towards his hand. No.... No... No... please.... leave me. " Are you okay ? Why are you crying ? " He said in sad tone. I started to cry badly. " Don't cry " He said calmly wiping my tears. He started to stare at me. He is so close to me. I ignored him and just crying with all my heart. " I said don't cry " He said a little anger in his voice. He removed his hands from me and placed his both hands on his head. He is about to get angry. " DON'T CRY !!!! " This time he shouted so loudly. My heart stopped a second. He hit the wall with his hand angrily. His hand is bleeding. " I... I... can't see you cry. I won't let you cry. No...No.... I... love you.. I love you " I seen a vibration in his voice. small tears are in his eyes. This is not a love. It is mad. " You are mine " He said and smiled at me. He took my hand. I am so scared of him. I am about to take back my hand. He looked at me angrily. He pulled my hand to him. He started to stare at wedding ring. He slowly kissed my ring. A shiver hit in my heart. " My wife " He said smiling at me and pulled me into a tight hug. I closed my eyes tightly and started to cry. This is not love. It's physco. YOU ARE A PHYSCO !!!!! MR. WILSON WIKE !!!!!