Scars
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Last published Mon, Feb 4, 2019
This is my story . . . it won't be in "time" order but it will be real. Please know that everything that you read is one hundred percent orginal and real. Yes I will tell my story in different ways stories, poems, memories or diary type entries.
Background:
I have PTSD . . . no I'm not a veteran but I am a survivor. I was molested by the one man whose job is was to protect me from the monsters. (my biological father) I struggle because I was silent for fifteen years. I have only been honest about my past for the last three and a half years. I struggle because there are times when I can't be completely free to say how I really feel. So it is my hope that here I can be free to tell my story without having to sugarcoat it.
* * * trigger warning * * *
I might post things that are triggering to some. If I do I will post an author's note prior to that piece letting everyone know what is coming up and that it might not be for everyone.
• Mature content warning •
As my story deals with mature themes and what not please note that there most likely will be things written that I want to share but have not been able to anywhere else. I will not post any specific warnings prior to a post letting you know of mature content ahead.
♡ Questions - if you have a question please feel free to ask and I will do my best to post a response as best I can. I am an open book there isn't much that I will not answer.
lastly please be kind. this is my heart written to ease the pain, anger, frustration, anxiety, despair and everything else that I feel. so please be kind and do not judge as i will not judge you.
thanks
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