And life is hard, unfair, painful and a down right bitch. We can't really escape from that. I, can't escape from that. I don't think it get's better, ever. But Mom always says, ''When the time is right all your hardships will lead you up to your reward, You will bare the fruit of all you have survived through. In Time everything will work itself out.'' But I never believed it, I didn't think that i would ever have that time when every thing would calm down and settle. At that time I didn't know how wrong I was and how close my ''In Time'' would be. The universe really needs to stop being so God Damn confusing and spontaneous. Uughhh!