How tf do you take a innocent girl, that trusted you, with everything, her heart, body and all && shatter allat shit, she still tries to fwu because she see nothing but the good in you, she loves you, gave you everything she could, you were her first, first everything, she's attached to you ... but you made her feel how she do, gave her reasons to feel how she do && want nothing to do with her anymore, she did nothing ... and you don't see anything wrong in what you do? you are fucking evil fr && then when that girl turns crazy over you, when that girl cannot LEAVE you like you left her, she's her own problem? she broke her own heart? so now she has to fix herself. that shit ain't fucking easy. that shit HURTS bro. i've been hurt && damaged too many && sooooo many times bro, i'm done saying i wanna keep pushing cause i don't bro. this shit breaks ah mfka down fr, ion feel like i'm worth shit, i don't love myself, i love everybody else before myself & i can't help what my heart do. you niggas are so lame istg y'all is.
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Ever since I was 9 she was my bestfriend, Over time my feeling towards her grew and she meant everything to me even if she didn't know that.
When I was 16 she graduated highschool and she focused her life on music and a year later she left for her first tour. I didn't know it at the time but it was then that we started to grow apart.
A year later we were completely out of each other's lives. That year was the worst year of life at 19 I got into a very traumatic incident losing someone important to me. It was then that I decided to give up on her and shut everyone out that I cared.
3 years later I was finally turning thing around to better myself but there she was standing in front of my door. She was asking me to forgive her, how can I forgive her if I can't even forgive myself.
I had to suppress those emotions, my feeling towards her. She needs to know that I gave up on her, and she should've done the same. Her stubbornness got the better of me, I thought I could keep those emotions lock away but I couldn't.
Now it's all catching up to me and it's all flooding way to quickly, I can't keep myself together. I'm hurting her for the things I've caused. I thought I could forget, let be for once but I can't.