You used to lavishly show your admiration to Sungjin. But he seemed to be showing annoyance and disappointment in return.
Seeing each other after few months of being away, you suddenly seemed to be a different person to him. The happy-go-lucky you became serious. The childishness was gone, and you just want to be adult fast.
And as if the table has turned, the attention you used to give him, he's the one giving it to you now. But you're not patient for him anymore. You got tired of all the effort and waiting--it was as if you were the one who was 'courting' him--now you just want to get rid of everything that involves him.
You're not the naive child who used to be head over heels for him anymore. You're not a child now, no--or at least that's what you tell yourself. But what they see is you only rushing to be an adult and trying to be responsible enough to have a reason to live alone.
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"Maybe life is a sport, but it doesn't mean it's a marathon. Sometimes you gotta take it slow."