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The Pain I'm In || Peter parker || [Completed]✔

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❝ y-you just WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND! ❞ 
I snapped staring into my clenched fists

❝ What don't I understand peter?❞
Tony kept a concerned tone, never once taking his eyes off me.

❝ The pain I'm in. ❞


I murmured glaring daggars at him. 

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In which Peter parker struggles more now than he's ever struggled before. With The death of his aunt may; her abusive Boyfriend takes guardianship over him. While life slowly unfolds around him, he is forced to struggle. How can peter be   spiderman- a super hero- if he can't even save himself from his own demons?

(Under editing, you know- grammar mistakes and whatnot)

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⚠Trigger warning⚠
- Thoughts of suicide 
- self mutilation 
- grotesque quotes/sections 
- depression and anxiety 
- Domestic violence 
- foul language 

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I don't own marvel, or Spiderman, or any character accept michael.

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I wrote this when I was 15, so there's a few minor screw ups!! I will go back and edit soon though!
Also this fanfic IS NOT BASED OFF OF MY LIFE OR REAL LIFE . AND THIS FANFIC IS NOT RELATED TO MY LIFE IN GENERAL.

This is literally just a story I wrote for all my fans requesting the Peter parker Saddness series and such love  you guys!!!All Rights Reserved

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