Death can come in 3 different ways. It can creep up on you like a cheetah, slowly and cautiously creeping up on a Giselle. Waiting till it's weak and off guard, and then pounce. Ending life in a split second without any warning signs, or flashing signals.
Or you can see it coming from a mile away, like a car you'll think "Isn't he going a bit fast?" but you won't over think it. Then boom! Your gone, with no time to process what had just happened.
It could be one stupid, simple mistake that could completely not be your fault or a simple misunderstanding. But you don't get time to do it over. You could just be sitting there at your house minding your own business when your next door neighbour burns her cookies, and both of your houses burn down to the ground without a minute to spare. And since you were in the house too, you burn to the ground as well along with everything else you used to own.
But that's the thing about life, it starts and it ends. Its like a balloon, when your born its full of air and is completely new. But then it wears down, constantly bit by bit, until finally it has no air left. It just shrivels up, so the truth is you can't be afraid of dying. Cause that second when you were born is the second you started dying
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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