What I knew as love caved in and left me blameful .He was the only one that taught me that even a gun placed in your hand could feel right. I knew that being a leader was stressful. So I made his life easier. I joined to make his life easier. I knew I liked to believe that he loved me back. He would tell me so everyday, whenever he got the chance. Things like that, for him, weren't easy to admit. I knew he showed it too, with the way he would kiss my nose...or make me laugh when he would say sarcastic things. I knew he was a change in my life and I was grateful that he was my antidote and I was his. I wasn't oblivious. It was clear I loved him. No one but me knew all these things. So how did I still manage to loose him? You may ask. 𝑾𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍... 𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝑰 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂 𝒋𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒓.