Jenny.

"How could you give someone so peaceful to the world, something so fucked up towards the world?" I ask 'god', thinking he could hear me.

"She was one of the best things I had... And you took her away from me.. Just like that? What did I do? What did she even do, for Christ sakes?" I ask aloud, again.

"You could have taken anyone..But you decided on her.." I sigh.

"Calum, you've gotta stop doing that." Ashton says walking into my room.

"What?" I ask confused.

"You can't keep drowning yourself in thoughts, crying, making it worse. I know you loved her, everyone did. She was amazing. But she wanted you to move on, you've gotta listen to the girl." he says to me. I wipe my face off, not realizing I was crying until Ash pointed it out.

"I know, I know. Its just hard, I don't know why she would get cancer, out of all the fucked up people in the world.." I say.

"Anyone could get it. You know that. But if you love her, let her go."

"I'm trying..I really am." I say as I hug Ashton and cry on his shoulder.

"Its almost been a year."

"I know.. Just let it out."