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The rain's comfort

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Beep beep beep... "Where am I? Am I really dead? is my life really over! What happened to me?" I began sobbing uncontrollably, why did this have to happen to me? Beep beep beep

"Jade..." a faint cracked voice spoke out.

"I'm so sorry... I couldn't protect you." Austin... that's Austin speaking to me.

Save me Austin


[ I wrote this FOREVER ago, I just thought I should say it's really..... challenging. There is a lot of self esteem issues and issues regarding mental health. I was in a very dark place when I was writing this- I just thought I should warn potential readers. I've also changed my writing tremendously! I do not write like this anymore. I think it's safe to say I rushed through the storyline and didn't develop my characters as wisely as I wish I did. And to that I apologize. The only reason I have not deleted this story is because this is just another demonstration of my past and a ledge from which I've jumped from to a higher level of thinking. We can't erase our past, but we can see the relics of our time and build from the foundations we've made. ]

Kindest regards, 

-Jay ØrtegaAll Rights Reserved

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