The lies we tell

Some day in your life, you look back on old memories and smile sadly thinking about how innocent and carefree you used to be, you let a single tear fall down your face, and turn around, facing your present day made of darkness. That's when you know you've lived a little, you've experienced a little, that's the day you know you have the start of an answer about what ife is. After realizing that, you sigh and think about a way of solving the multiple problems you have in your life.
This happened to me when I was fifteen years old, I discovered I had magick and then suddenly, everything got so messed up in my life, from lying to everyone to studying in two schools at a time, to occasionally somehow end up being in big trouble for whatever reason I never truly understood. the good thing was, by living this way, I was doing what i had never dared to do before, I lived, yes you heard that right, I lived, I didn't just survived, and it made me happier than I ever was in my entire life. sometimes, it also made me desperate because when you truly live, you laugh louder, cry longer, feel deeper and hurt so much more, but it's worth it all. so here i was trying to figure out the mess my life had become, this story is here to tell the things I learned over the years and over the pages of my books, to share all of it.