Maybe I Don't Want Heaven
cosmorphic
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  • Reads 368
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  • Parts 8
  • Time 51m
cosmorphic
Ongoing, First published Feb 16, 2019
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Comfort. Is that too big a word? Is that too much to ask for? For Alex, it is. He loses all he loves but it's the first time Camden loses someone. The loss weighs equally heavily on each of their shoulders. None of them can seem to breathe. Could they possibly seek comfort in each other, knowing that the other is forbidden to each of them? Can guilt be added to the list of all the emotions they are feeling? 

Alex's step-sister who also happens to be Camden's girlfriend has left the both of them and found her place in heaven. But can they, if they take what they need?
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42 parts Complete Mature

It only took one summer to change everything. Now Camden is just trying his best to carry on with life like normal, but that's a little tricky when his memories keep haunting and some nights are so bad that sleep evades him completely. He can't even imagine how much worse it would have been if Mateo hadn't been there. But that was the summer before and Mateo's been gone for the whole year since. What happens when Mateo comes home, and how will Cam ever face him again? ___ 'He looked mostly the same as last summer, older maybe, definitely more tanned. He'd grown his hair out a little longer, so it hung lower in his eyes now. I'd seen him post a picture with his hair like that a few months ago and decided to grow mine out too. I wonder when he looked at me, did he see me as I am now, or did he see me as I was then, that night?' ___ TW: sexual assault

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