Hiding from Everything

I coward at everything, My parents wish I was never born, and Life hates me. I just want to get through this year, this stupid torturous year. The worst year of my life. Is it worth it? Is life worth the constant suffering?
Stop the endless torture and the horrible mind games.
I don't care about what I did in the past. Isn't what only matters, is what's in the future.
I spend endless time dying on the inside where you can't see it.
I hate myself.
I cry and cry never having an end.
I dress in all black to show no emotion.
I hide my emotions deep inside me.
I put on that fake smile because; it's easier to fake it than explain it.